i’m going here tomorrow
Posted by: sophiasophie on: January 14, 2010
Just imagine this with the snow all around!
Yes, the holiday starts!!!
time goes by too quickly
Posted by: sophiasophie on: January 11, 2010
ha! surprise surprise, i’m still here writing shit on this blog.
anywho. time is ticking and there’s still lots to do. and even though i’m so excited about the upcoming trip (of a lifetime, may i add), im kindof blue.
one would think i would have learnt by now. sophia, u know you were not going to stay in belgium for a long time (remember, also 2007 – you were not going to be in singapore for a long time), why do u then do the same shit. throw caution to the wind and get involved. yes, ok. i admit. in the beginning, i thought there was no way i would go for this cassanova type. or so i thought. and then i was like, well im going to leave anyway, so its just a bit of fun. then things started to change. conversations flowed, and the laughter unending. and i started to like this guy.
but you know what i realised. involvement is good. without it, one is just an andriod, going through superficial motions of life. merely mimicking it. involvement brings the ups and downs. the good amazing rush that is happiness and the pain. and thats the way to live. and the more i do this, the more i’m glad i choose the path i did, i’m glad i made the decisions i made, i’m glad i let myself feel the way i do. and thats the way life should be. the good with the bad.
the older i get, the less jaded i get in this department. its fucking incredible isnt it?
the only downside is that the last couple of days really is going to be hard. but i will love and savour every moment of it.
its time to get drunk on champagne!
Posted by: sophiasophie on: December 25, 2009
christmas is here! 
merry christmas to all! feliz navidad a todos! joyeaux noel a tous! shen dan jie kuai le! frohe weihnachten!
i have a dead fish for a mouth
Posted by: sophiasophie on: December 19, 2009
so now the flurry of activities are lined up. doctor ordered 3 vaccinations. dentist ordered a treatment for my sensitive gums. and with regard to the latter, treatment part 1 commenced but i have a nagging feeling that dr dentist was a little too trigger happy with the anesthesia.
my nose has lost all sensation on the right side. and when i smile, it looks so lopsided that i cant help but laugh and that only results in a consitpated expression that looks like a cross between a grimace and a guffaw. i keep poking myself on my right cheek now and then to check if i feel all my nerve endings.
so, i have been rather productive lately considering i have only been on holidays(woohoo, using up all that leave) for 2 days. all the carton boxes for the move has been collected! my indian visa with the sikkim permit is done! and the ads for my car has (i think gone out to the whole of belgium 2 times over), still no luck with selling the car though. its rather tiresome!!! i need to sell it before i go! BUT no complains yet, in any case, having the car with the temperature below freezing point is downright marvelous.
and its rather strange i must say. i have an itch on my lip. but how can one have an itch if that same part of my face does not have any active nerve endings.
sidenote: even though snow looks so gorgeous in the woods and when it blankets the whole world, i really really really do not fancy it.
-10 days
Posted by: sophiasophie on: December 2, 2009
so i have just 10 more days at work. which is insane really. its like there is no more structure in my life. all that i know for certain will soon be no more. and its rather crazy. im so happy for moments and then nervous. im scared and then im excited. there is this deluge of emotions. literally. its super intense. its like i can fall in love.
on one hand, i love this exhilarating feeling of the unknown. its almost like being a jewel theif maybe. but there is also this other side of me that is shouting Are-You-F*king-out-of-your-Mind?
so there are several tasks ahead. operation sell the alfa is a GO. operation go to the dentist and doctors is also a reluctant GO. operation trip planning is not looking so hot right now but will have to be a GO too.
and its all chrismassy here with the lights and the cold and the xmas markets and i miss home!
its almost over! :)
Posted by: sophiasophie on: November 27, 2009
and the reason why it was so quiet the last time… well, that was because the bloody conveyors system crashed. but ok, thats solved.
moving on.
just one more weekend of saturday work and i’m home free! i can’t bloody wait. im so tired that im fighting extremely hard, almost to the point of it being excruciating, of just snuggling into a warm corner and curling up and going to sleep.
its 3.43pm and i have just started my work day. i want 2am to come NOW!
in the maelstrom
Posted by: sophiasophie on: November 17, 2009
and its halfway there regarding my project and im really glad. its kind of like in the eye of the storm right now. everything is calm even though one would expect chaos and disorder and arms and legs everywhere. but no, its really really calm. CALME. its almost disorienting when it was everyone talking at the same time and people running in and out. and changing shoes (we need safety shoes you see).
and then suddenly, its all quiet. but im enjoying the moment of quiet.
so i took this opportunity to do a little planning! since im building up all these holidays with the extra time at work, im off to porto, portugal in about 3.5 weeks time. i managed to squeeze some time off! and im all excited.
it would seem that my life is built around holidays. rather shallow i know. but it seems that this is the way it shall be for the moment.
17 jan 2010
Posted by: sophiasophie on: October 19, 2009
and then i realise, im going to miss so many things from here.
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and whats up with this blogathon bug that bit me?
and we go a full circle – home?
Posted by: sophiasophie on: October 18, 2009
basically, this was the most sedentry weekend i have had ever since i moved out of HHH- happenin hoppin hasselt.
what i did apart from watching the first few episodes of grey’s (6th season’s in the house yooohooo) and annie hall (u got to love woody allen and is that diane all skinny and young and slightly ditsy?) and reading about india (mental as i say for the bajillionth time that country is, and im mental for going there on my own) and putting ads for my car online (various places including autoscout be – the ad’s in dutch too!) and a teeny wheeny bit of studying, and the biggest activity of all was this – i wrote a tediously long emotional email to the rents. it was clensing too. in a way.
it went basically like this. so im going to be honest here. i didnt mean to “run away”. its just that i wasnt coping so well with your expectations. yada yada. i did it all those years because it was important to you. getting into that school. doing this. attaining that. yada yada. but i realised i couldnt anymore. and im happier now. blah blah. you have to trust me. i know your expectations only came from your good intentions. let me go. make my own mistakes. crap crap. a few hundred words of it and i pressed sent.
jesuschristohmightlylordy i pressed sent.
and after all of that. i realised that im so tired of this. and im convinced there is a solution. there IS a bridge that exists. somewhere. and thats the one we will meet halfway on. but i have to find it before too long, i cant bear them thinking ill of me. (in a way they are, thinking i live this hippy lifestyle) and maybe that bridge lies in me going back home. im tired of the fighting. the long distance silent treatment. its childish and im too old for shit like that. and i believe that it cant go on like this. if going home is what it takes, then i really think i should do that before it becomes too late. as much as i love my life here, how much further can i do this with this big stagnant pile of %^&$ that i have been dragging around? it has to end. and i think it will (or should i say should) end sooner than later.
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phew. that was heavy shit for a sunday afternoon, no?
In anycase however, i have my trip to look forward to and time is not going fast enough!
